It Sucks.

The way my mind works, especially with girls. I don't text first, but i've always been like that. And people think i just want nothing to do with them, or it seems like i'm whatever and i don't care, when i do. All i'm really doing is just waiting for you to txt me. Another thing, Ugh. I feel like i been a dickhead man. I hate it. I'll have someone try and talk to me or something but i just blow them off or whatever. I'm fucken sorry, it's just so hard for me to see someone that i feel i can trust. My mind fucks with me really. My mind tells me, trust no girl! It sucks for me, cause i can see someone i feel i like, but still wont bother to even try and talk to that person. IT SUCKS. I feel like i'm like this because of my past relationships, but i really don't know. Sometimes i think to myself, am i gona be like this all the time? With girls? I can be that sweet guy you wana text and just talk to. But i'm a different person when i'm your boyfriend. I'm just more... Idk, i'm not gona explain myself. Those of you who know, know. But fuck, why do girls have a big affect on me? Why!?